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  • NF – HOPE

    NF – HOPE

    Nathan Feuerstein, better known by his stage name NF, is an American rapper and songwriter known for his raw, emotional lyrics that delve into struggles with mental health, trauma, and personal growth. Through his music, he offers listeners a powerful way to process pain, find hope, and embrace vulnerability.

    His songwriting teaches us that creativity can be a transformative outlet for emotional release and a tool for healing and self-discovery. NF’s authenticity and unflinching honesty remind us that confronting our darkest moments can lead to strength and resilience.

    In his song HOPE, NF explores the emotional complexity of facing personal struggles and finding strength through adversity. The song emphasizes resilience, urging listeners to hold onto hope even when life is crippling.

    Through powerful, introspective lyrics, NF conveys that healing is possible, and that transformation often begins with confronting our deepest fears. No matter how challenging the journey, we can grow, evolve, and rise above our circumstances. It’s an anthem of perseverance and faith in the face of pain.

    Hope
    Yeah, I’m on my way, I’m coming
    Don’t, don’t lose faith in me
    I know you’ve been waitin’
    I know you’ve been prayin’ for my soul
    Hope, hope

    Thirty years you been draggin’ your feet
    Tellin’ me I’m the reason we’re stagnant
    Thirty years you’ve been claiming you’re honest
    And promising progress, well, where’s it at?
    I don’t want you to feel like a failure (failure)
    I know this hurts
    But I gave you your chance to deliver (deliver)
    Now it’s my turn
    Don’t get me wrong, Nate, you’ve had a great run
    But it’s time to give the people somethin’ different
    So without further ado, I’d
    Like to introduce my
    (My album, my album, my album, my album, my album, my album, my album)
    Hope
    What’s my definition of success? (Of success)
    Listening to what your heart says (your heart says)
    Standing up for what you know is (is)
    Right, while everybody else is (is)
    Tucking their tail between their legs (okay)
    What’s my definition of success? (Of success)
    Creating something no one else can (else can)
    Being brave enough to dream big (big)
    Grindin’ when you’re told to just quit (quit)
    Giving more when you got nothin’ left (left)
    It’s a person that’ll take a chance on
    Something they were told could never happen
    It’s a person that can see the bright side through the dark times when there ain’t one
    It’s when someone who ain’t never had nothin’
    Ain’t afraid to walk away from more profit
    ‘Cause they’d rather do somethin’ that they really love and take the pay cut
    It’s a person that would never waver
    Or change who they are
    Just to try and gain some credibility
    So they could feel accepted by a stranger
    It’s a person that can take the failures in their life and turn them into motivation
    It’s believing in yourself when no one else does, it’s amazing

    What a little bit of faith can do if you don’t even believe in you
    Why would you think or expect anybody else that’s around you to?
    I done did things that I regret
    I done said things I can’t take back
    Was a lost soul at a crossroad who had no hope but I changed that
    I spent years of my life holdin’ on to things I never should’ve kept, full of hatred
    Years of my life carryin’ a lot of baggage that I should’ve walked away from
    Years of my life wishin’ I was someone different, lookin’ for some validation
    Years of my life tryna fill the void, pretending I was in
    They get it

    Growing pain’s a necessary evil
    Difficult to go through, yes, but beneficial
    Some would say having a mental breakdown is a negative thing
    Which on one hand, I agree with
    On the other hand, it was the push I needed
    To get help and start the healing process, see
    If I’d have never hit rock bottom
    Would I be the person that I am today?
    I don’t believe so
    I’m a prime example of what happens when you choose to not accept defeat and face your demons
    Took me thirty years to realize that if you want to get the opportunity
    To be the greatest version of yourself
    Sometimes you got to be someone you’re not to hear the voice of reason
    Having kids will make you really take a step back and look in the mirror
    At least for me that’s what it did, I

    Wake up every day and pick my son up, hold him in my arms
    And let him know he’s loved (loved)
    Standing by the window questioning if dad is ever going to show up (up)
    Isn’t something he’s gon’ have to worry about
    Don’t get it twisted, that wasn’t a shot
    Mama, I forgive you
    I just don’t want him to grow up thinkin’ that he’ll never be enough
    Thirty years of running, thirty years of searching
    Thirty years of hurting, thirty years of pain
    Thirty years of fearful, thirty years of anger
    Thirty years of empty, thirty years of shame
    Thirty years of broken, thirty years of anguish
    Thirty years of hopeless, thirty years of (hey)
    Thirty years of never, thirty years of maybe
    Thirty years of later, thirty years of fake
    Thirty years of hollow, thirty years of sorrow
    Thirty years of darkness, thirty years of (Nate)
    Thirty years of baggage, thirty years of sadness
    Thirty years of stagnant, thirty years of chains
    Thirty years of anxious, thirty years of suffering
    Thirty years of torment, thirty years of (wait)
    Thirty years of bitter, thirty years of lonely
    Thirty years of pushing everyone away
    (You’ll never evolve) I know I can change
    (We are not enough) we are not the same
    (You don’t have the heart) you don’t have the strength
    (You don’t have the will) you don’t have the faith
    (You’ll never be loved, you’ll never be safe
    Might as well give up) not running away
    (You don’t have the guts) you’re the one afraid
    I’m the one in charge
    I’m taking the (no)
    I’m taking the
    Reigns

    Songwriters: Nate Feuerstein / Tommee Profitt
    © Capitol CMG Publishing


  • Running Into The New Year

    Running Into The New Year

    Running into 2025 with my head up, eyes forward, and heart open—and I’m not looking back for a second. 🏃🏻‍♂️💨

    This year, I’m saying farewell to the me I’ve outgrown, celebrating the me I’ve rediscovered, and embracing the anticipation of the me I’m yet to know.

    2025 is my year to conquer new challenges, starting with running my first half marathon. This time last year, I had only ever run 5Ks, never daring to call myself a distance runner. But everything changed when my wife challenged me to run the Greenville Trees Upstate Turkey Day 8K. I accepted—and crushed it. It wasn’t so bad after all, so I leveled up to a 10K. Now, with a 10-miler just 30 days away and my first half marathon in 60, I’ve gone from hesitant to hooked.

    They call it the “running bug” for a reason. There’s nothing quite like the rush of crossing a finish line, the dopamine hit that floods your system, and the satisfaction of crushing a goal you once thought impossible. It’s euphoric. And I’m here for all of it this year—chasing the real dopamine, the kind that fuels growth, resilience, and self-discovery.

    But this journey is about more than just running; it’s about pushing the limits I never thought I could challenge. Growing up, I wasn’t much of an athlete. Between mild asthma, outdoor allergies, and a chronic heart condition called Aortic Stenosis (a narrowing of the aortic valve that can limit blood flow and endurance), I was always told to “take it easy.” Physical activity was something I approached with caution, never pushing too hard or taking risks.

    Movement is Medicine.

    Ironically, it’s only by stepping outside those limits that I’ve become the healthiest version of myself. As I’ve increased my physical activity, my cardio fitness has soared. My resting heart rate is the lowest it’s ever been, and my HRV (heart rate variability)—a measure of my body’s resilience and recovery—is the highest it’s ever been. Beyond the physical benefits, running has transformed my mental health. It’s my stress reliever, mood booster, and a time for clarity and reflection.

    In my upper 30s, I’m acutely aware of how important it is to stay active as I age. Movement is my medicine. I want to feel this good not just now but decades from now. When I’m twice my age, I want to be strong, mobile, and capable—not confined to a chair.

    So here’s the plan for my half marathon:

    1️⃣ Goal #1 is simply to finish.

    2️⃣ Goal #2 is to finish with a sub-12-minute mile pace (or under 2:37 overall).

    And if I don’t? It won’t be a failure; it’ll be a stepping stone for whatever challenge comes next.

    Growth happens on the other side of comfort.

    Limits exist to be pushed. Growth happens on the other side of comfort. And this year, I’m choosing to be uncomfortable in the best ways possible.

    Here’s to running into the new year with purpose, passion, and perseverance. Join me on the journey—it’s going to a maratahon–not a sprint! 🏃‍♂️✨


  • Rekindling The Love of Words: My Journaling Journey

    Rekindling The Love of Words: My Journaling Journey

    when you have feelings, write about it

    keeping a journal is something i never kept up with until this year. i’ve never considered myself a wordsmith, but maybe a logophile—a lover of words. and this year, i’ve rekindled that love.

    i remember the pre-social media days of livejournal and xanga. every band, every tv show, had its own forum or message board. it’s like the internet could only handle so much, and that was all we needed.

    back then, i honed my creativity, but it was surface-level. i only scratched the surface of who i was. today, with more self-awareness and self-acceptance, i can express what i couldn’t in those early days.

    there’s something beautiful about the lofi nature of words in a high-fidelity world of tik tok reels, youtube videos, netflix, and endless noise. it feels cozy, intimate. like wrapping up in a blanket by a warm fire.

    i don’t journal every day, but i do it more often than not. and that’s something.

    here’s to writing more words in 2025. ✍🏻


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